By Joyce Catherwood
(Matthew 20:20-23)
es, Jesus had said he was going to
die, but we assumed his work had just begun. My husband, Zebedee, and I and both
of our sons, James and John , were swept up in the contagious energy of his
ministry. Everywhere Messiah went he was touching lives, healing the sick and he
had even raised the dead. We thought his influence would just grow and grow,
finally leading to his messianic rule from Jerusalem.
"I was overjoyed to follow Jesus
and care for his needs as though he were my own son. He nicknamed my boys ‘Sons
of Thunder’ because of their enthusiastic support. He and John had become best
of friends. So as we traveled to Jerusalem one day, it seemed natural to me to
ask Jesus for a favor. With James and John by my side, I kneeled before Jesus
and asked him if my sons could have prominent positions in his kingdom.
"His response confused me. He said
he didn’t think we really understood what we were asking. He asked James and
John if they were able to drink of the cup he was to drink.
"They said, ‘Yes, of course!’ They
could drink of the cup. We were not sure exactly what he meant by that. I did
recall that he had recently told us he would be mocked and flogged and
crucified. But his influence and miracles were so impressive, it didn’t seem
possible that could ever happen.
"I should never have made my
request, even though Jesus’ response had been patient and considerate. The other
disciples overheard and before long a huge argument broke out about who should
be the greatest. The ten indignantly turned on James and John. Jesus had to step
in to straighten everyone out, explaining the greatest must first become a
servant.
"Our hopes and spirits soared after
Jesus’ triumphant entry into Jerusalem. But our dreams were quickly dashed to
pieces when Jesus was arrested. The trial was such a mockery. Jesus was slapped
and spat on, and the crowds turned vicious.
"This strong, tender-hearted young
man had done nothing but good to others. Yet he was brutally beaten. Even the
execution soldiers were shocked at the extent of his wounds. I watched with
unbelieving eyes, determining not to leave him even though the other disciples
had fled for their lives.
"The grim process dragged through
the afternoon. My son John had also stayed by him and comforted Mary as she
knelt in unspeakable sorrow before the cross. As he struggled for breath, Jesus
asked John to care for his mother. My brave son took Mary’s hand and gently led
her back to us.
"Then Jesus died. Three days later,
he was raised from the dead, and we were overjoyed beyond words. But it was at
the foot of the cross I finally began to understand what it meant to follow him.
How foolish of us to ask for prominence. Jesus did not come to be served, but to
serve and to give his life as a ransom for many."